Happy New Year! Today is January 1st, 2020 and I woke up this morning with more energy than I thought was possible after just four hours of sleep. I credit this to the fact that Matt and I spent the majority of the past few days rearranging our home for the 983rd time since moving here, trashing and donating things we no longer need or use. It feels like we rearrange something big in our house like this almost every year, but such is life in a quirky old home.
By the way, our house is officially 100 years old as of this year. Happy 100th birthday, house! I bet you have lots of stories to tell, and I’m happy our humble little family gets to have a few of those chapters.
Anyway, we moved our bedroom from downstairs to upstairs and our office space from upstairs to downstairs, so now both kids are sleeping upstairs in separate rooms (the baby still sleeps with us), and we have full access to the main floor. The little one still isn’t sleeping through the night, nor does she show any signs of moving in that direction, so I’m sure it will be a long while before we can expect any form of sustained nightly routine, but it feels so liberating just to reclaim this much of our living space. This means we can stop tip-toeing from room to room whenever she’s sleeping or napping, which is often, and we can get some real work done during the early mornings and evenings. It’s a big sigh of relief for Matt and I, and with the shift of energy in our living spaces, I’m feeling really inspired to dig into some of my long-awaited projects.
In addition to the changes in our home, Matt and I have decided to start the GAPS diet as of January 1st. Even though the GAPS diet calls for lots (and lots and lots) of broth, pastured/organic meats, vegetables, fresh juice, fermented foods, cultured dairy, etc., and even though we’ve included those things in our meals for years, this new way of eating is going to be a big change for us and an intense amount of work for me in the kitchen. That said, I have a really good feeling about it, like it might be life-changing. And because I like to turn massive endeavors like this into projects, I’ll be posting about it on Instagram in a separate place from my main account over at @broth.belly if you feel inclined to follow along.
As for New Year’s Resolutions, the two things I want to focus on this year are health and family, which go hand-in-hand. For example, because our new way of eating, which we will be committing to for at least the next nine months, is so restrictive and specific, we are going to try to make it fun by going on family picnics to explore state parks and local sites. This paired with our decision to homeschool gives us an opportunity to be very intentional in cultivating and prioritizing our family time together. If we can do this in a way that doesn’t involve junk food or screens, we will all be better off for it.
Admittedly, this will be hard for me at first because I often get my work done when my husband is off adventuring in the woods with the kids, but this was never supposed to be our regular weekend routine. It was supposed to be something we did once or twice here and there when I was feeling particularly overwhelmed, and yet we’ve kept it up because I always seem to be neck-deep in my to-do lists.
But I came to the realization recently that this might not be the right season in my life for working this hard. I’m failing at it, anyway, and I’m in a place right now where I can make the choice to let some of it go, so I have. This doesn’t mean I won’t be working on my side projects anymore, and it doesn’t mean I won’t ask my husband to take the kids for the day so I can have a few hours to myself to record a video podcast now and then, but I’m letting the stress of it go for now. My family needs me right now, and honestly? I need them too, so we might as well take advantage of this time before they turn into teenagers and have much better things to do than hang out with their mom and dad.
Anyway, Happy New Year to anyone who is reading. I think this is going to be a year of deep healing, mentally and physically, as we challenge all our old habits and coping mechanisms and step into new, more nourished and balanced ways of being.